I really fucking hate it when someone knows that you've just gone through a really sucky experience, losing a family member (be it person or pet) and they choose a grand total of 3-4 days after the passing to poke about and ask questions about a process as though something's wrong when really, nothing worth mentioning out in public is wrong. A guy I used to swear up and down was one of my better friends just did that despite the fact that HE KNOWS Dixie just passed away 3 nights ago and another friend's mom passed away 4 nights ago. Calling our processes and how we go about doing something is semi-okay, as long as it's A) not out in public, and B) at least a little warn-worthy; but a week after 3 of the 5 people have just gone through something like losing a loved one?
Oh fucking hell no.
Yes, I only lost my cat and you think I shouldn't be as heartbroken as I am, but I've had her for 15 years, since I was 8. So yes, I'm allowed to freak out when you start poking about in public in something that you have no business poking about in. No that will not give you the right to say I'm unstable and need to be relieved of any responsibilities. The whole "house of cards" as you called it, will stand for a little bit without me. I've picked a better team than to let it crumble, despite the fact that you refuse to recognize that I do actually "have the mettle" to do my job.
I know that you'll never read this and even if you did, you'd probably just let it go in one ear and out the other, like you did all the problems I had with someone at the beginning of the year, promising me that you'd say something to help me, clear the waters a little bit, yada yada yada. I stopped paying attention after the fifth time I felt those bus wheels on my back when you threw me under it. Honestly, I don't know who you are anymore and I don't want to. I hope you never return to my house of cards because honestly, I don't want that under my watch. I don't want that sort of backstabbing and insensitivity around the people I'm responsible for. You can go off to your new shiny places and pretend to be doing your job when in the 7 almost 8 months you've been in it, you've yet to do anything other than two rough drafts. That aren't even a page long each. They did not take 7 months to write, no matter how busy you are. You promised to have almost everything done by now, and all you've done is two rough drafts that covered maybe a tenth of what you promised the final product to be? I was called on the chopping block FOUR TIMES in as many months for lesser things and you got off skate free.